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A Failure's Lament (Poem)
A Failure's Lament
     By J.C. Solis

He had confidence and strength
And he started off high
To great accomplishments and deeds
That will reach beyond the sky
He had a dream
To be a man so great
Beyond success and accomplishment
That no one awe-inspired could rate
So was the plan
To earn a great life
So lapped with luxury
Without monetary strife
But the Real World is cruel
And to no life it abates
As it tries to bring all
To a Terrible Fate
So He started out confident
Until life slapped him in the face
For Reality is cruel
As He tries to keep pace
To grueling hard tasks
And do not dare question why
Lest He fall out of place
And down the abyss He will die
His strength was not enough
For these trials to overcome
As His work turns to ashes
And He has nothing left in sum
Drops of saline liquid
Drip down His crying cheeks
And he cannot understand
How became so weak
He tried as hard as He tried
Yet the tears He can't hold back
Because he was
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Literature
A Terrible Fate (Poem)
A Terrible Fate
By J.C. Solis

To those of you who are reckless, beware
Let you meet an end that is definitely unfair
Good tidings to those who deeds are very kind
While the sheep colored black start to lose their own minds
Yet tragedies occurred, whether naughty or nice
And you review your own life and the things you'd think twice
So a life you do follow, full of pity and scorn
As to your Time in the Present turns to a Past you now mourn
We all eventually die, as this is a very sad truth
And there is no way to regain those days spent in youth
For you made the wrong choices and consequence you faced
As you were bound into handcuffs with your head freshly maced
So you follow down a path so dishonorable it may seem
As you commit certain acts you dared to never dream
You ruin your reputation, family honor and Health
All in pursuit of Dirty Money and Wealth
But a lifeline you were thrown, though its a sight you did hate
But yet you grab on and go down a new path that awaits
It is
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Literature
Pokemon Story - A Grotto Frozen in Time Chapter 3
Pokemon Story


A Grotto Frozen in Time - Chapter 3
Chopper was incoherent when he began to stir. His head was pounding, and he felt his joints stiff. He wondered if he could move around and open his eyes to assess his situation.
One thing for sure was this… he had a horrible taste in his mouth.
He groaned and grabbed his head, which was still pounding and throbbing, as though he got hit really. Then he remembered--he was hit by a Shadow Ball.
"Guys! He's waking up!" said a cheery sounding, familiar voice.
Chopper opened his eyes to see three faces starring at him: Jax, Minx, and Kendra. Chopper now had his eyes wide open, and when he tried to lift himself up he fell right back down.
"Don't stress yourself too much, you big lug," said Minx. "Wait until you fully recover."
Chopper looked up to see Kendra's cheery face. He found himself laying across Kendra's lap, and it was her who helped nurse him back to health. "What in the world did you guys feed me?" he f
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Literature
The Trial of Kindness (Poem)

Inside that

White Button Down Shirt
Of Kindness and Generosity
Lay the the Dark Shirt
Of a Shriveled Heart
Of a Broken Soul
That barely beats
But still beats enough
To show
That even the Broken
Can still
Have the Heart
To do what is Right
For the Greater Good
To make sure
No person
Will Fall Down
Into the same Pit
Of Despair…
Author: J.C. Solis
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Literature
Lemons
"When Life gives you Lemons, you make Lemonade."
Pessimist:"No you don't! You get fucking Lemon Juice!"
Optimist: "Who says you don't have water and sugar with you?"
Author: J.C. Solis
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Literature
Your Own Enemy (Haiku)
The Worst Enemy
That You can Have for Yourself
Is in fact Yourself...
Author: J.C. Solis
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Literature
Ironheart - The Tale of the Half Dragon Chapter 5

Ironheart

The Tale of the Half Dragon




Chapter 5 - The Secrets of Half-Dragons

"Jaxsom." said a familiar sounding voice.
Jaxsom was still incoherent, but he heard the voice calling.
"Jaxsom. Awaken," said the voice again.
Jaxsom was still in delirium, yet slowly he began to open his eyes.
To his surprise, he found himself standing upright. Even more shocking was the fact that he was in an astral-like purple haze. He looked everywhere, and it all seemed the same. Was he floating, or standing on top of a hidden surface?
But none of that mattered. Right in font of him was a white cloud. And it appeared sentient.
"So," said the voice. "You have awaken at last," said the cloud.
Jaxsom didn't no what to say. The cloud had a familiar presence, but it was still unclear if the cloud meant any good.
"Who or what are you?" Jaxsom finally responded.
"I am a spirit, of a dead creature recently killed in the nam
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Literature
Believe in Your Strengths (Reborn)

You follow down a path
Towards your Hopes and your Dreams
As you frolic through fields
And in happiness you gleam
The high of Euphoria
From all that you've gained
Through toil and trouble
And terrible pains
You hope to reap what you sowed
That the crop does grow plenty
And you water each seed
So your gain may be many
But there are times down the road
Where the going gets tough
And you strain yourself much
And the going now turns rough
The road has turned to mud
And the crops have all failed
And the times then turn terrible
Beyond your strength can even pail
You struggle in the dark
To reach that sacred light
The Hope of your future
Through the darkness you fight
But the dark aura of failure
Lays heavy on your back
And you run out of vigor
And energy you lack
You say no to the vices
As the Dark Ones try to rule
Your life and your body
To meet a fate so very cruel
This tragedy that's befallen you
Has consumed your entire soul
For there is no longer salvation
And you will no longer be
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Literature
Pokemon Story - A Grotto Frozen in Time Chapter 2
Pokemon Story

A Grotto Frozen in Time - Chapter 2

Snow was falling outside of the inn, once again making snow piles that poor Pokemon laborers had to shovel and cart away. It was still pretty early. The sun had just crept over the horizon, but the town already began to bustle. But for Kendra and her teammates, breakng dawn would not be their alarm to wake up
The four explorers were still laid up in bed. And all four of the poké-explorers were sore from yesterday's spelunking and battle. They all feel into a deep sleep from such exertions, and the snug blankets made sure their sleep was warm.
"Good morning, everybody," said Kendra, who was already up and walking.
"Shut up, will yah? I'm still trying to sleep," groaned Chopper.
"Morning, Kendra," said Jax, who began rolling out of his covers and stood in a sitting position. "And mind your manners, Chopper," he chastised.
"Good morning, Kendra darling," said Minx as she rolled out of bed with a smile. "And don'
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Literature
Inner Madness (Haiku)

Woe to the Crazed Man
Who is trapped inside his head
And cannot get out

Author: J.C. Solis
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Literature
Ironheart - The Tale of the Half Dragon Chapter 4
Ironheart
The Tale of the Half Dragon


Chapter 4 - What is Inside You
Gwineth followed Master Wizard Aeromar through the many corridors of the castle. Slowly, as they walked, she began to note and herbal scent that continued to grow the more they went on. Soon the scent became overpowering, almost enough to indulge a sneeze.
Finally, after one more corridor turn they came across a massive chamber, filled with people walking by, carrying books and scrolls and cart filled with empty and used bottle filled with who knows what.
"Welcome to the foyer of the Castle Apothecary, the largest one in all of Alysium," said Aeromar as he turned to Gwineth. "What do you think of it?"
"It's amazing!" cheered Gwineth. "All of these people are wizards, right?"
"Correct," confirmed Aeromar. "From Wizards and Witches, to Healers and Battle Mages, everyone here has a title to choose from. And every single one of them put a magnificent amount of effort to achieve their rank. Wh
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Literature
Pokemon Story - The Dusk of Moonlight Hollows Ch.1
Pokemon Story
The Dusk of Moonlight Hollows Ch.1

The sun was setting over the western horizon, leaving the overlaying sky in a rose colored haze. On one side was the fading sun, finishing its turn in the hours of the day. On the opposite side was a full moon, a round celestial body of bright white and shine. Twilight always seems so peaceful. The equinox of a world that is and isn't there, with the forces of night and day sharing peacefully their place above the sky.
A lone Lopunny stared at the dusk with empty eyes, her heart heavy with sadness and her mind gripped in despair. A tear trickled down her cheek as her sorrow began to overwhelm her. She felt like she was about to explode from her grief, with her eyes barely able to dam them inside.
Her grandmother wouldn't want her to be like this, to be fretting on a beautiful crimson night such as this. Yet her granddaughter's yearning made it all but impossible to control.
Moonlight Hollow was where Serene would spend time with N
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Literature
Chained in Cold Irons (Poem)

In a prison of cold metal
Wrapped in chains of solid iron
Stayed a beast that laid prisoner
To hold back its crazed desire
He tugged on his chains
And he demanded to be released
To follow forth his actions
And bring an end to coming peace
The Beast let out great roars
His cries of sheer Ire
"Damn you all!!" He shouts
As his heart lights on fire
He cursed and he spat
As he looked straight at the light
And with all of his powers
He tugged these solid iron blights
Yet try as he might
The beast remains barred
From the light of the outside
Which now looks miles too far
But his screams started to change
As it changed from demands to pleads
And it is during this transformation
That revealed what he wreathed
The beast now weakened
His vigor now faded
His temperament soothed
As his heart now turned shaded
A man this beast was
Before wrapped in cold chains
Becoming a Wraith of a Shell
After a life of strong pain
The prison still filled
Of screams still so shrill
Yet the beast now transformed
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Literature
This is My Life (Poem)

I sit and try to learn
But I do not Perceive
I try to offer prayer
But I do not Believe
I am timid and shy
Yet I am no Coward
I may be weak now
Yet I hope to be Powered
By a strength of the heart
That is starting to Grow
It may be a budding flower
But it's bloom will start to Show
I am an ignorant man
Yet I witnessed the whole World
From the kindness of the heart
To Evilness that's Curled
I've seen many faces
But they were masks, not real
Which, if you start to peel back
You see secrets not wished revealed
And at the beginning of the climax
You see what is Reality
Not created by your mind
What is there in Actuality
You dare not look
At what we all call the Truth
So we blind ourselves with ignorance
And pretend your mind runs Aloof
Yet there is so much to life
Filled with the Birds and the Bees
Who somehow coexist
In their lives filled with Glee
The possibilities are endless
As Fate has now shown
Not ruled by your Destiny
Which is a concept Overblown
You yourself are the leader
Down
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Literature
There Must be More... (Poem)

There must be more than pleasure
From Lust and Pornographic desires
The Sins of the Flesh that we crave
That set our own hearts on fire
There must be more than Winning
The contest entered and won
But the meaning of victorious events
Can be reasoned down next to none
There must be more than college and school
Yet there is a path that I want to follow
I should get good grades and score high scores
And my career will blossom in the morrow
But I keep on wondering about my life
And all the people who are around me
I remember the past and hope for the future
But I'm uncertain about what I could be
I want to travel all over the country
And wherever the road takes me I'll go
And I wish to know every place that I visit
Just cruising down the highway slow
I want to see if I can love someone
And hope that her heart I have won
To start a family and have good times
Will all of my daughters and sons
But I still cannot help but be insecure of my future
Even though I know nothing will go wrong
As
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Literature
After the Storm (Poem)
In Memory of the Victims of Hurricanes Harvey, Irma and Maria

After the Storm
All across the land
To destruction of metropolises
And beaches cleaved of sand
After the Storm
And the dead are being grieved
For this is a tragedy
Far beyond anyone could believe
After the Storm
They carve to save the living
From rooftops and second floors
May Hope keep on giving
The destruction in it's wake
As the storm passed on by
Left the dead strewn All Over
As families could only cry
For the storms that did come
Have broken the hearts
Of the millions of masses
With their loved ones torn apart
Because Nature's own Fury
Proves once again that Man is Weak
And in the aftermath of punishment
Do salvation we do seek
But what Fury cannot remove
Are the people who do dare
To rebuild after destruction
Because Humanity indeed does care
Because Fury cannot quell
The bravery of Man
Who will take on the lashings
Of Nature when it can
For after the Storms
Man has pro
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   Morning broke through slits in silken curtains, rays of sun like golden-orange fire lighting up the room. Dawn had spilled its blood upon the land. Even through dark, thick curtains, the fiery glow of the new day turned navy to orange, and gold trim into diamonds and stars. Ketz shifted under the sheets and struggled to evade consciousness as the heat of outside warmed the blanket. Eventually day won over. Ketz slithered out from the icy sheets and onto the floor. It took him a minute to find most of his clothes. He let out a weary yawn, forcing his tiger ears back, and slipped a pair of brown pants on. They were good enough for another day. A simple white shirt was left open and unbuttoned, hanging loosely off his shoulders. He yawned again and quickly downed a glass of water on the bedside table. It was time to face the world.
   Heat poured through in full-force as Ketz threw open the curtains in one swift motion. The glass doors opened
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JC Solis (Justin)
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
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"Imagination will often carry us to worlds that NEVER WERE. But without it, we go NOWHERE."
~ Carl Sagan



I like to ask tons of questions. And sometimes, I might even find answers to them.

I don't know too much about the world and my surroundings, yet that just leaves me plenty to explore.

I'm just barely starting out - and though I may be small, I hope to do BIG things!



Call me JC! (Or Justin, if you wanna become friends ;) )

I'm a college student on the west coast, yet despite my major as mechanical engineer, I want to do so much more!

I'm starting to learn the tricks of the trade, and have delved into many topics, from emotions, mental health, philosophy, and even to move people's hearts with the Power of the Written Word.

I mostly do Poetry and Storytelling - right now I have a series of Dragons, Pokemon, and some random poetry.

And as my skill gets better I'll be trying new and interesting ideas. Hopefully, my writing will show just how much better I have become, and becomes all the more enjoyable!

And literature is what I will mainly post. In truth, I can't draw to even save my own life :(. But I instead create scenery and imagery through the power of the written word.

I hope you enjoy my work!!! ~ I might just enjoy yours. ;)



Here are other accounts you can find me on:

Tumblr: jcsolis01.tumblr.com



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Hey everyone! It's me, JC!Hi! 

I'm continuing work on Ironheart, and so far it is going well. But I still have a long way to go. And another project, besides schoolwork and Final Exams, has been taking my time. And it is quite a bit more... robust, if you may call it.

Aw, what the hell. Why don't I just tell you straight up. It's a romantic erotica story between a dragon and a maiden. The title is called "A Drake and his Maiden", and so far, I've written 9 Micro Word pages. This is still mostly sfw, and I plan to post it on this weekend.

When I add the NSFW content, then sadly I won't be able to publish it on DeviantArt. But I plan on posting it on my FurAffinity account, as well as the erotica story website Literotica.

I'm guessing your either shocked, excited, opposed or even offended by this move on my part. And to be honest, I'm not alone.

A lot of artists here on DA also post NSFW content on other websites, sometimes under a different username. Basically, their living a double life. And I guess I'm following the trend.

But I'll still be writing plenty of SFW stories for you all to enjoy. This new "naughty" story is just something I've been wanting to get off my chest, and have had the idea for it ever since I began writing Dragon stories. 

But I hope you don't judge me because of this. My Mantra is to write stories not only for my enjoyment, but for other people to read and enjoy as well. I want to make people feel happy, bring enjoyment, get people thinking, or even incite a reaction.

Just to be clear, this story is for a Mature Audience Only. Not is it strictly for adults to read, but also for those who can handle reading a sexualized story. I don't want to hear people complain and denounce me a pervert or a fetishist. 

What's for a Mature Audience is for a Mature Audience. :stinkeye:  

I hope, especially from you guys my friends, that you will still follow me. I don't want to lose anybody from loss of respect. I'll be posting WAY more SFW stories than mature or even sexual stories. Like I said, I had this idea in my head for a long time, and now I am letting come to life. 

Whether you love or hate it, as well as me, is your choice.

Thank you for reading this Journal. I'll make sure to have Chapter 6 of Ironheart done before Christmas. And the I'll post what I got on "A Drake and his Maiden". 

I just hope that you will enjoy what I'm going to post. Leave whatever comment or criticism you like. It's just one story. And I hope it is as accepted as my other works.

Happy Holidays, and God bless! :D (Big Grin) 

Sincerely,
   J.C. Solis

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Hey everyone! It's me, JC!Hi! 

I'm continuing work on Ironheart, and so far it is going well. But I still have a long way to go. And another project, besides schoolwork and Final Exams, has been taking my time. And it is quite a bit more... robust, if you may call it.

Aw, what the hell. Why don't I just tell you straight up. It's a romantic erotica story between a dragon and a maiden. The title is called "A Drake and his Maiden", and so far, I've written 9 Micro Word pages. This is still mostly sfw, and I plan to post it on this weekend.

When I add the NSFW content, then sadly I won't be able to publish it on DeviantArt. But I plan on posting it on my FurAffinity account, as well as the erotica story website Literotica.

I'm guessing your either shocked, excited, opposed or even offended by this move on my part. And to be honest, I'm not alone.

A lot of artists here on DA also post NSFW content on other websites, sometimes under a different username. Basically, their living a double life. And I guess I'm following the trend.

But I'll still be writing plenty of SFW stories for you all to enjoy. This new "naughty" story is just something I've been wanting to get off my chest, and have had the idea for it ever since I began writing Dragon stories. 

But I hope you don't judge me because of this. My Mantra is to write stories not only for my enjoyment, but for other people to read and enjoy as well. I want to make people feel happy, bring enjoyment, get people thinking, or even incite a reaction.

Just to be clear, this story is for a Mature Audience Only. Not is it strictly for adults to read, but also for those who can handle reading a sexualized story. I don't want to hear people complain and denounce me a pervert or a fetishist. 

What's for a Mature Audience is for a Mature Audience. :stinkeye:  

I hope, especially from you guys my friends, that you will still follow me. I don't want to lose anybody from loss of respect. I'll be posting WAY more SFW stories than mature or even sexual stories. Like I said, I had this idea in my head for a long time, and now I am letting come to life. 

Whether you love or hate it, as well as me, is your choice.

Thank you for reading this Journal. I'll make sure to have Chapter 6 of Ironheart done before Christmas. And the I'll post what I got on "A Drake and his Maiden". 

I just hope that you will enjoy what I'm going to post. Leave whatever comment or criticism you like. It's just one story. And I hope it is as accepted as my other works.

Happy Holidays, and God bless! :D (Big Grin) 

Sincerely,
   J.C. Solis
Hey everybody! JC here! No longer depressed, but still hella stressed.

I got week left in the fall semester, and then I'll be free!!!... for two months before spring semester begins.

My next post, if it's not a poem, will be Chapter 6 of Ironheart. 
Now things are starting to get interesting. Jaxsom and Gwineth both are showing great power as dragon/human offspring. But Jaxsom was wounded by a rival who met a terrible end. Once again, the story switches to Gwineth's side and her events.

But before I get ahead of myself, I must warn that I may be absent this coming week. And that is because the last week will be FINALS WEEK!!! Waaaah!Nuu  Crying omfg I am a dummy! 

Final exams are next week, and the grade I get can either make or break my grade in that class. I'm at the middle point between passing and failing in one or two of my classes, so obviously the stakes are very high.

But if I don't procrastinate and study hard, I might just make the grade.

After that, It's Christmas Time!!!Merry christmas everybody 
And I'm doing the best I can to buy my family gifts with my limited amount of money. But as the saying goes, "It's the thought that counts."

As for traveling, my parents and I will probably be heading to take a trip to Mexico to celebrate Three Kings Day and other traditional holidays on New Year's Day. I still hope to keep in touch with everyone, since internet is kinda limited. But you just gotta roll with the punches.

I got a lot on my plate this weekend, and I'm going to be juggling many things at once. If I don't crack under the pressure, then you can expect me to be ready to roll.

I don't plan on letting this semester turn out to be another semester like in University. I will give it my all, and even if I fail I will still try again and come back even stronger.

At least, that's what I should keep telling myself.

Here's to a Final week of school. And my everything turn out alright.

Sincerely
   JC Solis

A Failure's Lament

     By J.C. Solis


He had confidence and strength
And he started off high
To great accomplishments and deeds
That will reach beyond the sky

He had a dream
To be a man so great
Beyond success and accomplishment
That no one awe-inspired could rate

So was the plan
To earn a great life
So lapped with luxury
Without monetary strife

But the Real World is cruel
And to no life it abates
As it tries to bring all
To a Terrible Fate

So He started out confident
Until life slapped him in the face
For Reality is cruel
As He tries to keep pace

To grueling hard tasks
And do not dare question why
Lest He fall out of place
And down the abyss He will die

His strength was not enough
For these trials to overcome
As His work turns to ashes
And He has nothing left in sum

Drops of saline liquid
Drip down His crying cheeks
And he cannot understand
How became so weak

He tried as hard as He tried
Yet the tears He can't hold back
Because he was too meek
And He was burdened by his Pack

Of expections and deeds
That since the beginning He should have met
Yet he was a gear too different
For the machine he would be set

Now all that remains
Are pockets left poor
His clothes left in tatters
And his body beyond sore

So goes the tale
Of Such a sad Fate
For Life is a Bitch
That very few can sate

So His dreams have been shattered
But not his wholly heart
Because He still has strong Hope
For this system He'll tear apart

Down a new path He goes
And slaps the Bitch across the face
Because He still has a dream
That he will follow at his pace

So here is the Man
Who started off a Failure
But He never lost heart
And became his own savior

Such is the Man
Who dreams beyond the sky
For his goal he will meet
And to the Bitch he'll say Goodbye

So ends the Lament
Which began with a Lost Heart
Yet ends so very proudly
For his new journey is to start

For He will no longer suffer
From the Cruel Hands of Fate
To become A Great Man
Because his future now awaits...
A Failure's Lament (Poem)
This one is for my future. May I indeed reach my dreams...


Author: J.C. So!is
Title: A Failure's Lament
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Nothing new happened today. Or maybe it was just a repeat of before.

When I got a C, I fell into a deep depression.
I now got a D, and my heart almost came out of my chest from the Anxiety Attack I had.

It sounds like being too hard on myself for not passing that one Math test. But after three years of Failure at the University, I've been holding myself up to a higher standard--one that I'm sure I can't reach.

I had the Anxiety Attack while driving to school. But halfway there, I returned back home. I went down a long straight-away street, and I had so much grief in my heart that I stomped on the accelerator pedal.

I didn't care if I would've been pulled over by the police. I didn't care if I was driving 60 MPH in a 35 MPH I didn't care if I plowed int another vehicle. Death seemed so inviting at the time. When I returned home, full sorbid anguish, my Mom and my Sister was there to comfort me. But I didn't fully recover. I was left half coherent for the rest of the day. My head was pounding and was very dizzy. That's how usually an Anxiety Attack works for me.

But the grief went away. Because I got a text from my Dad. He told me to give it my all today in that text.

I then felt my felt my pain go away. I've mentioned before that my Father is a strong man, physically and mentally. And I began to think of what my Dad would do if he was in my shoes.

He wouldn't cry. He wouldn't even blink. He would carry on and try again, and get ready for next time.

This awoke something in me. I felt my Dad's courage and valor. I got over my emotions. I no longer felt depressed. My dizziness and incoherency went away. And I no longer want to cry. I want to succeed now. And I will start by working on my grades now.

What I meant in the title about inspiration was that I finished a poem today called "A Failure's Lament". But it's a poem that does have a happy ending, and it has a life lesson and meaning.

I'll let you guys read it to see what I mean. ;) :D

I can't even believe I had an Anxiety Attack. It feels like it happened years ago, not hours ago. But I guess that's a sign that I'm getting stronger.

Thanks for reading this vent slash announcement. I hope none of you go through what I went through, and if you have have may it never come again.

I got a plan that just might make me pass my Math class. And I'm going to need my Dad's and my own strength to get through it.

Wish me luck on Finals week! (Which is next week, btw). After that, I've got a long winter break. Let's hope we all have a Happy Holidays! :D :la:

Sincerely
   J.C. Solis
I received my score back from my math test this week. I got a D.

This is not good if I want to get myself into trigonometry next semester--and once again the grade was a blow to my self-esteem. 

I want to be an Engineer so badly, but I had a talk with my grandfather and my parents. They said that if I can make the grade and become an engineer, then maybe I should choose a different career path.

The thought was a bit disheartening. No, it was VERY disheartening. Every since Highschool I've been preparing myself to become an engineer. But I've let myself go. I've been hitting it hard during the beginning of the semester. I was fully dedicated to my studies. But time has taken its toll, and I've been struggling and slacking off.

To think, I've Fallen to the same bad habits that go me to drop out of University.

But I don't want to give up. I want to pursue my Mechanical Engineering degree, and I'm not yet about to throw in the towel.

And if Engineering doesn't work out, then I'm ready to try something else.

Maybe I should go into writeng and make a career in literature. Or Psychology. Or who knows what else.

But I'm going to miss my Engineering Major if I do have to abandon it. But until I completely fail, I will give it my all!

Thanks for reading another story of my poor life. ;D
At least I have good friends like you guys to cheer me on. And I thank you guys so much.

Sincerely,
     J.C. Solis

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